June 2011
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as i packed my bag,
had one fervent wish.
that like the travels before this,
may this trip rescue me somehow.
untangle me
from my jammed up state.
loosen my grip
on things beyond my control.
now i’m filled with gratitude
for the balm of this generous land.
clarity can be heartbreaking
but it’s the kindest thing to do -
to decide what matters most.
to keep what’s...
door constantly ajar,
swinging back and forth.
solitary space no more.
suddenly, i got roommates.
thought i’d be more territorial.
instead, i’m charmed by their petty hilarity,
their winner-takes-all online poker mentality.
their curiousness in everything me.
in exchange of quite a privacy,
i have some timely, just-as-messy, company.
May 2011
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i’ve been having the best sleep lately.
perhaps it’s the weather
or maybe because someone always conveniently forgets to buy coffee.
strange —
how my bed has been on a winning streak versus late night socials.
the last time i was out for a poker session,
i surely made good use of the couch.
i don’t even want to get up anymore for a live tennis match broadcast.
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if i knew how to pray and really believed in it,
i would be down on my knees begging for some clarity.
i don’t trust myself anymore —
when it comes to making decisions,
when it comes to trusting people,
when it comes to holding on or letting go.
i wish private words remained private.
unbroken by a gesture of well intention.
i appreciate the loyalty
but i’m pained by...
April 2011
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March 2011
2 posts
The Dalai Lama, when asked what surprised him most...
“Man. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived.”
February 2011
10 posts
“My fondness for you but my loyalty to me.”
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“This is a good time to remember that when we harden our heart against anyone, we...”
– Pema Chodron
January 2011
2 posts
“It is ON like Donkey Kong!!!”
November 2010
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mind fart #1
I have to write this down because I don’t often get clarity on things this profound. There I was in the room with resume in hand when a nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach arose. So I stayed with it until I was seriously going to get nauseous. What seemed to make sense last night is looking like a train wreck of an idea right at that moment. So, I stood up and left, and just like...
June 2010
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May 2010
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“Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.”
– Abraham Lincoln